Tash gave me the present that you had all kindly put together for me. I don't really know what I was expecting but I certainly can say that it was no where near what I received.
I was totally speechless (proof on Facebook!) which I think you will all agree is a very are occurrence for me!
The kind words in the book were lovely and they really do help me to keep strong.
The gift of the money was totally overwhelming. I cannot find the words to say how thankful I am. It was such a lovely gesture as making memories for Tash and Flynn to keep hold of is so important to me and you have made that so much easier. We intend to use the money to go away somewhere special to us.
It is times like these that completely restore your faith in human kindness and makes me feel very humble. I often feel that is much more than I deserve. And I can never convey enough thanks to everyone,..whether its coming to chemo treatments, visiting in hospital, nice texts, supportive words, day trips out, being a shoulder to cry on, lunches, distractions, offers of reiki, massages, campervan, caravan, money to mend our sink, anniversary gifts, retirement money, gifts from family and friends, silly photo messages, way more than I can possibly list. And then this.
Last time I was fighting for my life. This time around I know, as you all do, that I can be strong and fight but ultimately I will lose. I have tried to accept this but haven't been able to face many people. I am hoping to see you all at Glenmere soon. It's something I am very nervous about as I want to be strong in front of you all...and not a jibbering wreck!
I only wish I can do all this kindness justice. Keeping strong can often get very tiring and there are times when I cry, lots! But most of the time I live minute to minute, day to day.
I hope the jokes and things I put on my blog make you laugh and keep you all in the loop.
The support for not only myself but for Tash and Flynn is wonderful as ultimately I believe it is harder for all those around me.
I often think that it is a shame that it takes something like this for people to say or show how they feel to the people that they care about. So if you do one thing this coming week, tell someone how much you appreciate them. You will never know how warm it makes them feel.
And as for me, remember, I may not be able to change where I am going, but I can change how I get there!
Love to you all
Xxxx